MZA-Boi Tells 'Em(Neruda's Early Dayz)

I know it's not possible, but I think I'm regaining brain cells, because I'm remembering a lot of tiny aspects of my life. Like, my first love jones.



The year was 1996. My mom had just become an LPN and she worked night shifts. On the grounds of being a good parent, I couldn't be left alone, so she found a babysitter. Her name was Angela Ward. She had a lot of kids, Don and Deon, who had a crush on my aunt back in the day, Parren, he wrestled and punched me every morning to wake me up (he rapped too, I guess that's why I do it), and two daughters, Eisha and Angela, who was nicknamed Shell to avoid disambiguation.



Don was a grown ass man. Deon was grown too, and I don't know where he lived, he had a retarded laugh and his girlfriend was hot. Parren was about 14-15, I guess, Eisha was about 13-14 and Shell was my age, 6, when we met.



We went to the same school, South Avondale. Mrs.Ward was a staff member there, so we always got up extra early to go to school so she could go to work. She would occasionally change in the living room while I was watching the News, I hoped for black screen so I could sneak a peak, Mr.Ward would kill me.... To this day, I never quite understood what it was she did there, but I guess bills were being paid. Wanna hear something funny? I had the same teacher Kindergarten-2nd grade, and when we moved from Kindergarten to 1st grade, there were only three first graders in the class. Me, this sweet thing named, Olivia, and a girl who couldn't read, Katie.



So, I guess things never quite kicked off in my head until 3rd grade. When classes would switch, Shell and I always sat together. Jibber-jabbering and such in class. We always had to be separated, I liked that shit. Mrs.Ward was my full time babysitter. I'd go to their crib after school to watch Gargoyles, Bobby's World and all that good shit, then I'd return in the evening to sleep there for school the next day.



It was the good life. Since Mrs.Ward's house was technically a daycare by permit, another babysitee joined the cast. Her name was Netti, or Neddi (understand my donkey adoption thing, now?) , but her nickname was Princess. I don't think she went to our school though.



So, one day, I don't know how it formulated, Shell wanted to kiss me. I can't turn down such an offer. So we did it. Then things were starting to roll. She showed me what I would later realize that I would spend the rest of my life chasing after. She requested of me to return the favor. Okay! Her mom called and the Penthouse story came to an abrupt end. Did I mention Princess was watching?



I moved from Avondale to Clifton for the 4th grade. I never quite got to say goodbye to Shell, and I sometimes think about if she thinks about me. The best thing a person can do to stay connected to another in such a world, The Internet. She's there, but clearly doesn't check it. So, the moment we've all been waiting for, who was MZA's first love interest?

Do you have a change of heart MZA-Boi? I don't know, she reminds me of Cherish now that I think of it.....Hmm......I feel the same.

That was an okay reflection...

P.E.A.C.E