Closure

First let me say that Ace and Matt need to chill. Uh, you know I thank you for supporting me when I was down but it seems I get alot of shit for these women and to me I see it as "why?". It is my life and I live it how I see fit and if I bring it up it's because I would like help, not, "Ughhh, here we go again", or "Bra, chill, don't worry about it"...when everybody was you was tryna in deep thought or saddened over the summer I didn't say shit except when I had advice, when you came to me for advice because you too felt love I gave advice and when you were tryna to get the one you truly love and your with now, I was their, ya didn't think I had my own problems and it's a shame that it took me crying for ya to get it. Excuse me if it's informal.

But it's like I get so zoned out sometimes because when I bring up something like this, I got the same response after one time of bringing it up. This is what I go through...it gets me through my fathers death, some form of love and people never understand because the mintue I get serious they don't know what to do...listen... Man, it's like I feel so left out, and say that this is whining but I say that I rather say it now than say it later and leave man, not to threaten but it would of just been getting bigger and bigger til I explode.

People never got it, it's hard giving your all to a woman and she leave rather than she actually tells you that she never loved you. Imagine chasing a reason for a year because you needed closure but you a break through a girl you really like only to zone her out..it hurts when she texts you saying that she been seeing someone else and that you were really never on her mind as a potential boyfriend. It's hard to bounce back when you attach it all to her...it's hard when you can't say shit because you gotta be stronger. Im Grimm but i'm also human and I hurt and i'm not saying that it should be a Lifetime movie everytime I say something...ya are my only free time...i work 30 hours a week and go to school full time.

Like I said, it's best I say this now and move one with the group then keep turning acidic and snapping at someone. I just want love, just like you wanted to be Empathy again or you wanted her. I'm not venting, I'm letting air out.